Survey

01. Eyeliner or mascara?: a little bit of both =)
02. Disney films or scary films?: disney!
03. Skirts or jeans?: Jeans.
04. Socks or leggings?: socks <3
05. Hoodies or jackets?: hoodies
06. Heels or sneakers?: neither.
07. Straight or curly hair?: curlyy.i wish i had curly hair =(
08. Hoop or dangling earrings?: dangling
09. Side bangs or one lengthed?: side bangss
10. Your favorite colors: PINK!! & Orange.
11. Victoria's Secret or Bath and Body?: Bath and Body!
12. Smoothies or lattes?: Smoothies. definately.
13. Diet or regular sodas?: Diet coke ALL the way!  
14. Water or daquiris?: water.
15. Diamonds or pearls?: diamonds.
16. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?: Ashley.
17. This or That?: this =)
18. iPod or cell phone?: cell phone =)
19. Friends or family?: ahh bothh
20.manicure or pedicure?: pedicure.
21. Love or peace?: peace & love <3
22. Sunglasses or purses?: purses.
23. Friendsor boyfriend?: friendss
24.Kissing or hugging?: kissing
25. Blushor lipstick?: lipgloss =)
26. Coffee or Ice cream?: ice cream <3
27.AIM or MSN?: aimm
28.Xanga or Myspace?: myspace
29.Day or NIght?: night
30.Brunette or Blonde? brunettes are so hott right now.

Update!

Wow. It's been 8 months since my last entry. Can you believe that? SO much has happend in the last 8 months, but here's a few words to sum it up:

• In January I had a break down and was admitted into the hospital.
• Me and James are still broken up; I finally got over him for good and moved on.
• My dad had 2 surgeries on his neck/brain stem, VERY dangerous surgeries. He developed an infection in the insicion from his surgery, the doctors put him on the strongest anti-biotic... they ended up giving him TOO much, sending him into shock, which he almost lost his life to.
• I did the CIT program at Camp Y-Noah for a whole month. It totally changed my view on life and i'm such a better person because of it, during my break down time I was basically at the cross roads of life; I could have either went to the "wrong direction" AKA keep on doing drugs and hanging out with losers and doing horrible in school.. or the RIGHT way... to turn my life around and not have the "I dont care" attitude anymore.
• At camp, I met an AMAZING boy. His name is Jordan and he's a counselor at Y-Noah. The first day of camp I saw him and it was basically lust at first sight. I actually didn't have a FULL conversation with him until camp was over, but now we're super close, we're basically best friends. Hopefully, we'll become more because we both have feelings for eachother, but we're both not ready for a relationship. We'll see!

I can honestly say that I'm extremely proud of myself. It's been a rough past few months, but I've made it, and become an amazingly different person. Well, that's about it. Just wanted to update since it's been FOREVER!!! I'll write again in about 8 months, hahaha just kidding. I plan on updating more often!

I only went to school this week on Friday cuz I was so sick all week.. I had the flu & mild bronchitus.. ugh it sucked.. but I went to school on Friday, Aunt Lana picked me up from school and we drove around and did some talking and listened to country music :) hehe.. NEWS UPDATE ::: I decided not to drink anymore until new years eve... who knows if I even will then.. I quit smoking too. Yesterday I did some really deep thinking, and even though James & I broke up.. I'm not gonna let it ruin me like it's been doing for the past 3 months.. I was a fool for holding on for too long & I learned my lesson... and I'm getting over it & moving on. I should have seen that it wasn't what he wanted, but I was so far in denial, I didn't even believe we broke up until like 2 weeks after we did. Like I was on the phone with Nicole last night... and her and her boyfriend of 3 years just broke up and we were just talking & reminiscing about old times with our boys.. She told me that the only thing I can do is wait... until he comes around... hopefully he will...sooner or later... you know? But I seriously gotta thank all my friends who've gotten me through this.. like I was so lost and they just took my hand and made me get through it.. I couldn't ask for better friends.. They're my world!!!

oh dude exciting newsss;; I talked to Alex (my ex-manager) and we're gonna start up writing the script again.. like around this time last year me and him were working on writing a script & holding auditions and making an independant film (with me as the lead of course =]) haha but we're starting that back up cuz we put it on a break because of school and his college & stuff.. It's so fun working with him. he's really talented and hilariously funny! so umm yeah can't wait! You're gonna see my name in lights one day ;)

9 days until the added fx concert & hotel party! so exciteddd! partyin' old school style!!!!!! I miss Charlie oh so much! Lets seee.. whats newww... umm I got really stoned with Kelly, Mahi & Darren the other night.. we had like 4 blunts.. eeekk  I'm not doing it anymore though. Me and Kelly quit. & the way i'm going right now... my lifes going down the tubes and I'm not going to let that happen.. i'm changing my life around. Starting today.

Me and James started talking again recently... I guess we're friends now... He tells me he really cares about me... but obviously he doesn't care that much if he's already been dating someone else for a few weeks and then has the oudasity to basically make out with her infront of me. Oh well, It doesn't really bother me anymore... I've moved on.  Well I really can't say I've totally moved on.. Because we still both have feelings for eachother.. (I think?) & I could sit here and ramble on for hours and hours about James. Yeah, I'm really pissed at him for putting me through so much heartbreak but I hope one day he realizes that no girl could ever possibly love him more than I do. And It's true.. I really did love him more than life